Showing posts with label emo. Show all posts
Showing posts with label emo. Show all posts

Saturday, May 15, 2010



watch it~

it peeves me 
to see that you only say
"hi"
when you need something from me.

am just sick of all the hidden agendas.
all the fake greetings
(i am sorry to be judgemental..but that's how i feel)
all the motives that you have...

be it for good
or bad.
if it happens once in a while,
it can be overlooked.

but it's almost everyday?
boy do i wish you were wiser.
and i do hope i am not like dat as well.
s.c.a.r.y

i wish you were true...
i do like you as a friend.
but i think you've crossed my boundary.
for today.

Lord, grant me a forgiving heart...
and the patience and wisdom to deal with this...
i pray that i will have a big heart...
cuz i am too much of a petty person sometimes.

=(

Sunday, April 18, 2010

if you're not into emo posts, please do not proceed reading

recital's finally over...
i watched the last pianist stood up
and applauded with all my heart.
great joy i have within me.

it is finished.

a sense of pride,
joy and sadness welled up...
well, this is it...
out three year program has come to an end.
curtain closed for ACT 1.

dearest s.roo gave me a lift to the lrt...
and i there, i waited for 20mins.

i've never felt so alone 
for such a long time.
waiting for the train in silence seemed 
FOREVER.

it is not solitude that i am facing...
but loneliness...

in the midst of the joy you see upon every faces...
you still feel it.
the loneliness eats one up
it is unspeakable and unfathomable by others...
it cannot be expressed by words...

only the heart hears it 
and feels for it.
the heart pounds life away.
and it is only God and I:
who heard the cries within me.