just a short blog~

how i spent my sunday and tues noon?

well...i had lunch with my aunt's family and bible study group...

the kids are a HANDFUL...

and mind you, i mean it!

they're so active that we were given the VIP room!!

(thank God for no cling-clang sort of nuisance!)

my lil baby cousin

don't get deceived by her innocent looks....

haha...she is priceless when it comes to wittiness and smart!

the people's darling

Abel...he's such a sweet, handsome little prince.

yes...he's 5...

lunch with evie after workout on tuesday..

yum!

fettuccini carbonara....

have a good day everyone! 

dear you(s)

dear you...

thank you for proving that..

some guys can be a COMPLETE jerk sometimes.

c'mon...think about it...

you dump a girl just because she put on some weight?

or just simply because she is not as pretty as your other friends?

it's plain....

s.t.u.p.i.d

anyway, i am glad that you did so too...

why?

because

YOU ARE SO NOT WORTH IT.

.period.

external appearance doesn't last forever my dear...

it is the inside that counts.

sigh...

i just hope that you'll wake up.

and dear you...

ugh! you are worse than i thought!

how can you manipulate YOUR sis...

just to woo another girl you hardly know?

all your concern and care

 for your sis has nothing but an act?!
la-di-da

YOU FAKE...

sigh....

i just hope you'll wake up one day...

you seriously do not know

how much you've hurt her, 
do you?

i seriously have no idea how

you GUYS think...

what's in your mind?

and they say that girls are complicated?

i need to think twice on that statement.

its wednesday...

group study in old town

bangsar south.

EVERYONE 

is working hard on Labonotation....

all except for me~

blurred....but this is 

The Labonotation Study Group

wei nee...trying to figure out the positions and symbols

discussing dance notation with sensei hui hui

sensei hui hui explaining past year questions to swee leng

happily...shirley's laughing at a certain comment by one of the girls

carmen referring back to the notes that sensei hui hui

was explaining.

erm...

i had a dream...

but no song to sing about.

it woke me up early in the morning...

i dreamt of cockroaches 

and

pill bugs...

at the size of my palm.

all in my bedroom...

against the walls...

creepy crawlies...

well...i need not post cockroaches...

i am sure you know what they are...

and now...i am wide awake..

and yet, sleepy!!!

in my dream, there's 

 dad and my friend(josh)

they were acting so cool about it...

and the weird thing was....

no matter how i tried hitting the bugs...

i have 90% chance of MISSING it.

O.o

Evie was in my dream as well!!!

and in this dream of mine,

she wasn't afraid of bugs ...

so that IS extra 

weird.

flowers!!!!

so...the aftermath of my recital...

i just realzied i didn't take much photos with my flowers...

had evie to help me take a few-many shots

^^

a bouquet from my aunt...

a rustic feel...lurve it!

this one is from my choir~

this is from momzy and popsykins~

i LOVE lilies!!!

from my PKUM juniors!

lovely, ain't it?

i am a happy girl

thank you everyone!!!! 

xoxo

cyn

if you're not into emo posts, please do not proceed reading

recital's finally over...

i watched the last pianist stood up

and applauded with all my heart.

great joy i have within me.

it is finished.

a sense of pride,

joy and sadness welled up...

well, this is it...

out three year program has come to an end.

curtain closed for ACT 1.

dearest s.roo gave me a lift to the lrt...

and i there, i waited for 20mins.

i've never felt so alone 

for such a long time.

waiting for the train in silence seemed 

FOREVER.

it is not solitude that i am facing...

but loneliness...

in the midst of the joy you see upon every faces...

you still feel it.

the loneliness eats one up

it is unspeakable and unfathomable by others...

it cannot be expressed by words...

only the heart hears it 

and feels for it.

the heart pounds life away.

and it is only God and I:

who heard the cries within me.

recital's TOMORROW!!!

am not FULLY prepared.

but by God's grace, He will see me through.

^^

i'm nervous
BUT
excited.

stressed
BUT
absolutely happy.

worry
AND
free

i am all...
MIXED UP.

oh well, sleep early tomorrow.
you have a long day to go!!!

tra-la-la~

Grateful

Dearest you....

I was watching WVC trio + 1 live when you texted.

i just want you to know that

your text means a lot to me.

thank you for believing in me...

even when i stopped.

thank you for being hard on me-

to help me improve.

thank you for your pointers,

advices, care, concern...

that help to make me grow.

as rough as you were...

i know you still care,

and tho i am really stressed out

because of you,

i will try my best.

for God,

for myself,

for you,

for my family

and friends.

thank you for your encouragement.

and dearest you,

i hope and pray that you'll one day

find the God that i rely and believe in.

for evie

dearest you...

I thank the Lord for your existence....

thru your mom....the mom that is yours and yours truly

you both make a great combo~

and a sis for you to bully~

the female rendition of Bert & Ernie

(of Sesame Street)

vain times we shared...even with the lil' one...

and all the breakfasts, lunches and dinners 

we have together for the past 3 years....

this shot is my favorite...

you've turned from a girl to a beautiful young lady!

happy 21st birthday dearest!

loads of love,

cynthia 

xoxox